Saturday, March 15, 2008
wooooh...
it's been quite a while since my last entry on this...
a lil update cos the past couple of months have been quite blurred for some reason...
and no... it's actually not drug induced!
i'm working back @ salesforce now... this time in St. Kilda... i'm a salesperson now... which is good cos it's awesome money, but @ the same time it does stress me out a fair bit when i'm not having a good day with my sales.
Mr.X is now running his own kitchen in a cafe in ritzy snooty brighton & loving it!
i'm so proud of him... he was there for a week & the owner basically handed all the kitchen duties & responsibilities over to him to delegate... yay baby! he's been trying out new recipes & experimenting with heaps of stuff, which is what he wanted.. so yeah... things are going great...
everything is moving a lot slower than we'd hoped.... but isn't that always the case (especially with Mr.X & i) hahaha...
At the moment, we're slowly saving up money to get a house a little further out from where we were before moving to Sydney... we both want a yard & a little house with a couple of rooms... i guess the whole trip thing matured the both of us & we want different things compared to what we wanted last year sometime...
im looking forward to being able to sleep in his arms again... getting a puppy... going away for weekends.. having lazy sundays & just being us in privacy... i miss us...
i've realised that life isn't all about having fun & getting fucked up... pretending you were okay, when things were crumbling...
Mr.X & i have gone through a lot together in the past couple of months. Within the relationship, as well as in our separate lives... it's not for me to say what has happened in Mr.X's life... but he's dealt with it better than i would've & he's had his fair share of downs lately...
As for myself... my mum's health is deteriorating... she's got cirrhosis of the liver somehow... or that's what i've made of the mumb0-jumbo chinese medical terminology mum spat for me... she passed out one day & had to get taken to hospital... people don't just fucken faint ! stupid fucking doctors she goes to... dont know fucken jack shit...
dad's still not drinking alcohol.. it's been a while, he's changed quite a bit.. he actually picks me up from the station n stuff & talks to me... it's been a long long long time since we've gotten a long... probably 7 years or so... it's good having dad back!...
it's weird that when you're angry @ someone... you make yourself forget the good times you use to have together.... was it anger.... or that i was just young? i dont know... but going through childhood photos brought back good memories...
my mental health has been up n down for a while now... since being back i guess... it was pretty hard getting back into the whole 'work' thing... i've been keeping my 'downs' pretty tame... i've got some sort of control... but it still doesn't feel nice to feel low.... but yeh, i've finally adapted and i'm actually enjoying doing something everyday.. at least it keeps my mind off shit hehe...
ehh... so... i fell down the stairs @ the movies a few weeks ago... it was fucked cos we left the movie early... and i slipped.. ankled rolled & surfed a few of the stairs... i stood up & absolutely pissed myself.... so did Mr.X (after making sure i was okay though) ... he still hasn't let me live it down yet hahhaa
last night we had a work function @ strike bowling ... obviously i had 4 beers & a tequila shottie... oh and something like a lemon, lime & vodka.. and i was running around the place hi-5ing everyone and doing all sorts of yelling n screaming.. work mate rolled me off the couch a few times too... so my ass is fucken killing me!
i miss my baby... hopefully we'll move in together again soon enough... i just miss living our own lives... it sux intruding on others' lives just so we can survive....
i just wanna yell a shout out to my family & friends (including Mr.X's family - cos you're my family too :D ) ...i just want to thank you for all the support you've given both of us... i know we've made massive mistakes, but i assure you... we've learned a lot in the past few months.... on that note... i cant promise we wont fuck up again... but definitely will try... Thank you... from the bottom of my heart.... we'd be in a pretty shitty situation if it weren't for you all... we'll be out of your hair soon enough and definitely will show our appreciation...xoxo
that's enough for one night...
much love to all...
xx - Miss.X - xx
Sunday, January 13, 2008
we just figured... what's the fucking point of saving up in sydney... to pretty much have nothing.. only to move back to melbourne where home really is....
as much as i loved sydney... im a melbournian @ heart.
i cant do a transfer from work cos i haven't been there long enough... but my team leader said to mention i worked @ salesforce in sydney.... team development should have me on file or something... i didnt really hear all of it... but yeah something along those lines... i already miss work but im loving being home more so it cancels it out :P
so... got booked doing 138kph towards melbourne... unregistered car.. but luckily the cop didn't check... it sucks being broke... i have a tan line across my chest from the seatbelt !! >_< !!! and my driving arm is back too.. lol.. but yeah....
i drove from 10am - 9pm..... WOO HOO!!!! with lil breaks in between... but both of us could tell the drive was getting to me cos i was getting shitty periodically through the end parts of the drive... blah.... the car's fucked...
anyways... kinda scared about the next few weeks/months cos we gotta pretty much start from scratch again... but yeah i miss having our lil 'thang' goin on again...
newaiz... pipe's comin my way so i'll end it here.. xoxo
rock n roll
-s2- Miss.X
p.s - i just found out i have bi-polar.... all this time i just thought it was depression... lol i guess i'll listen a bit more carefully when i'm in the doc's office from now on lol....
